It was when I went through a tough period in my life.
The thing is, I had almost a "perfect life". I was married, had two kids, own two houses, a car, a stable income, food on the table everyday (am thankful for). It was just a society-perceived "good" life.
But, somehow I felt lost.
Somehow i felt grounded, tied.
I was not happy.
For years I tried to tell myself that I was not thankful. No, i am thankful, with what I have, what God has blessed me with. Not going to change that.
But that is not the point.
Being happy is a choice, but why was I not happy?
Why didn't I choose to be happy?
That is the point.
Choice. Happiness. What went wrong?
Our lives has always, well most of the time, been influenced by the people around us. Our parents, our friends, teachers, lecturers, bosses, well in general, the society. It is like there's a built-in "code" of "living our lives" that we must adhere to, that if we beg to differ, we are perceived to be odd, weird, an outcast, etc.
I am a victim of this. I followed the "code".
Hence, Tiadakod. "Tiada" in Malay means "no", "kod" is "code". No code. This is my journey to break the code. To discover my true self and what makes me happy. This is self-love, reconnecting with myself.
Trying new things.
Change perceptions.
Be happy. Be me.
#tiadakod
